I thought about closing my substack page

I thought about closing my substack cause the last four months have been hard man. Really hard.

I was depressed and burn-out. I was dealing with school and teaching sooo many students. I was giving lessons  almost everyday after school and it  killed me. Inside and outside you know?

I have been a guitar teacher for the last 15 years. And let me tell you. I am sick of it. Like it kills my soul. I am so fuckin tired of it. I wanna be in stage. Play my guitar.

Composing music in between classes at school and playing my instrument saved me. I don’t know how else I would have done it.

And I needed the money you know? But it almost put me on my knees when I realized that I was working so much and the money that I did was not even enough to pay my shit.

My salary was very poor. I was working at two different places giving all these fucking lessons and it did not bring me what I needed to pay my shit and eat. I was so frustrated , lost. And to be honest I thought about death again. Cause what gives you know?

I did the best as I could to hold on. My show with my band on november 18 also saved me. I was on stage. The stage is my throne you know?

Around november, things got really bad for me financially. I had a hard time to go to the grocery stores.

And that’s when I received one of the biggest check. I received 7000$ from the royalties of my album that for launched in 2023.

I was shocked. I never seen that much of money. And it was all mine. I could not believe it.

I bought groceries, pay my shit and went to Lisbon♥️

I still have some if that as savings and it feels amazing.

And I go this money from  music . Not giving lessons.

Music will always save me. Creating music. Playing on stage.

I took 8 students this semester . That’s’ it.

And I am focusing in on music, hapinesse, joy and smiles.

And also, without you, I don’t think I could have done it . Your words of encouragment.  I am glad I did bot close my page. ♥️

I am ready for it.

Love always,

Quinn

On my throne